Vol. II - Fall 2002 - Issue 1
Two years ago, I along with a thousand other students began a journey that
many of you, have recently begun. My high school was replaced by a college,
my home in southern California by a dorm room in Baltimore, and my mother’s
home cooked meals by all you can eat cafeteria buffets. At the time scared
and yet excited, I believed my college journey would consist of surviving
the ups and downs of the competitive academic milieu that Hopkins is infamous
for. Little did I know that, even more significantly, my journey at Hopkins
would entail a journey of spiritual enlightenment.
I have heard many times that college is truly the time when students
discover who they are. Although your journey might begin and end differently
than mine, in my opinion there are three paths a student can take. Many
students now empowered with freedom from parental chains realize that religion
doesn’t hold the same place in their hearts and souls as it once did. Others
might discover a new faith and follow new religious practices. And yet
others, in the face of adversity and new experiences, might rediscover their
faith and find a new and deeper meaning in the religion that they practice.
I believe I have passed through all of these stages: denial, doubt, and
discovery, and now find myself at a level of peace and spiritual certainty
that I had never attained before coming to Hopkins.
When I recall my first day of classes full of new and exciting events, I
can honestly say, that everything went the way it was supposed too. I met
close friends that shared common values and interest, I found a volunteer
project tutoring inner-city children that was inspiring and rewarding, and
I found a means of expression for my love to dance. Despite the temptations
of completely shrugging off my academics, I quickly achieved the academic
balance, applying my best potential to my classes. But after what might have
outwardly appeared to be quite a successful semester, with no major trials
or tribulations. I still was not happy. I wanted to transfer out.
You see, no matter how wonderful Hopkins could be, nothing could replace
my home and family. I was incredibly homesick, and I felt completely alone.
Suddenly it didn’t matter that I was surrounded by 100 other residents and
was on campus with 4,000 other people. I was alone, and no one could change
that.
It was around this time that I began to find new meaning in the weekly
Hindu prayers that I had attended since the first semester of my freshmen
year. How incredible it is that after 5 months of attending weekly prayers
at Hopkins, and after 18 years of calling myself a Hindu, and attending
prayers at home, I discovered that the prayers could actually give me peace
and solitude, and, even more, heal my pains. The words of the prayers were
not to be recited blindly in a trance, but were meant to be pondered and
questioned. Even if it was only once a week, this time was crucial to my
mental and physical health. In my new world were everything had changed, God
was still watching over me and had never left my side.
Hinduism is an ocean that I am just beginning to explore and I am truly
proud of myself for coming to the realization that I there is so much I do
not know, and so much that I can learn. I truly believe that this active
participation in my faith is what helped me to conquer with my homesickness
and gave me energy to be who I am today. My experiences have shown me that
passive belief in any faith is futile.
Although I will never be able to learn everything about a religion that is
over 5000 years old, I am proud to realize the immense beauty of the Hindu
religion that is tolerant to all faiths. Many people are misled to think that
Hinduism is all about rituals. True Hinduism is a philosophy that everyone can
follow and benefit from whether they call themselves Hindu or not. It is a faith
based on the fulfillment of duty to self, family, friends and mankind without
any expectation of a reward. As I learn more and more about Hinduism, I want to
share my knowledge with others. I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I
am to be a board member of the Hindu Student Council and have this honor and
opportunity. Ð